Fath al-Mawsili RA asked, “Will not a sick person who is prevented from nourishment, water and medicine die?” … “The heart likewise, when it is prevented from attaining wisdom and knowledge for three days, dies.” After my one year of intensive Islamic Studies I rode a high for a while, but as life goes, I did not keep up with my studies, not reviewing or expanding on that knowledge and I felt the slow drift as my soul moved away from the brightness it once carried.
In an effort to get it back, I tried reading more Quraan, praying more thikr, listening to qasidah’s, waking up for tahajjud and attempting better concentration in all acts of worship, however, no matter how much I tried, I wasn’t really gaining any light. I thought I just wasn’t doing enough, but now I understand. My increased acts of worship were not going to bring me any closer to Allah. Only by increasing my understanding on these acts of worship and increasing my understanding of Allah and this religion would I be brought back to the spiritually alive state I felt before.
Acts of worship may be enough to make us feel like we are doing good deeds and deserving of being rewarded the gardens of paradise, however knowledge is what will make us feel like we are worshiping our true Creator and fulfilling our purpose so much so that the gardens of paradise become completely irrelevant to our endeavour.
May Allah make us people of beneficial knowledge. May He guide us to worshiping Him in a way that is pleasing to Him and save us from anything that distracts us from Him.
Love Sabeena & Jehan