Salaam Souk Sisters!
The reality is that we’re fallible. As much as we try and expect ourselves to be just can’t be perfect. The Messenger of Allah ﷺ said, “Were you not to commit sins, Allah would create people who would commit sins and ask for forgiveness and He would forgive them.” [Muslim]
Another thing it’s hard to be is happy, hopeful and strong all the time. And you don’t need to feel guilty or ungrateful for feeling anything less than you know you’re supposed to, as long as you acknowledge Allah’s favours upon you in your sadness.
Your sadness is a sign that Allah wants to bring you closer to Him. He wants you to pray to Him, to open your heart to Him, to read His verses and recite His beloved’s duaas. It’s not an easy thing to do when your heart feels so heavy and your mind so clouded, but He wouldn’t put you in this position if He knew you couldn’t handle it.
When you feel like you’re losing hope, seek refuge in Allah from Shaytaan. Force yourself into action by saying, “In the name of Allah.” Imagine yourself close to your grave or in the hereafter trying to make excuses for this moment that you’re feeling hopeless. As comfortable as it is to wallow in self-pity, all you have to do is ask for forgiveness and ask for strength, repeatedly until you’re granted it.
The Messenger of Allah ﷺ said, “Verily, from what was learnt by the people from the speech of the earliest prophecy is: If you feel no shame, then do as you wish.” [Al-Bukhari]
We already know that this life comes with struggle. But embrace your struggle and don’t give up. You are only completely hopeless when you feel nothing. Feeling may be painful, but it’s a gift.
May Allah continue to grant strength to our Imaan while keeping our hearts soft to His mercy.
Love Sabeena & Jehan